Trying times

My uncle got an extension for his eviction. Thank God. But it seems that things are still not falling into place like they should. My brother and Sam would be the ones to help move him. Well next weekend my brother can't. He has guard. Then the following weekend he is having some sort of training. So guess that leaves Sam and I. geez.. I'm tired just thinking about it. Well we have other family members that can maybe help. Not like we see them hardly ever. But hey extra hands are always welcome. We're looking into getting a list from the County to see what apartments/houses are available. Then we'll see if he can transfer from one country to another easily or is it more difficult then what it's worth.

I just wish we didn't have to deal with it. But here it is.. get with it and get it done.

when it rains it pours..

My uncle called me yesterday and said he's being a evicted in 3 days. Let me tell you a little bit about him. He is 50ish. He is disabled not like a wheelchair disabled but he gets disability from the Veterans Administration. Anyhow, he get a little bit of money from the VA. A little bit of money from Social Security. Barely anything to live off of. But he makes it somehow. My mom has always been more like a mom to him. Always helping him out and doing for him. And both my brother and I have too. Well he's a recovering Alcoholic. He hasn't had a drink in years. I'm very proud of him. He's very overweight and has trouble getting around. He was trying to set up home healthy care through the VA because he's on oxygen and all that good stuff. Now he gets a letter from an attorney's office that he has 3 days to get out. Like WTF, I could see if he wasn't paying the rent. But he's been sending his portion of the rent (HUD pays the other portion) to the landlords. Well apparently they haven't been paying the mortgage so that leaves my uncle out in the cold. He always has a great attitude really because if it were me I'd be in need of some serious drinking. But he can't do that. So he calls me just now to tell me he called the lawyers office and they gave him 30 days. So now he'll be lookng for a new place within that time they gave him. I'm hoping that he can move closer to my parents, brother and I. We can do more for him if he were closer. He says he needs to be where he is because it's closer to the VA. But he only goes like once a month. When he goes visits us it's like twice a month if not more. So it would be better for him to move closer our way.

So for those that read here.. please pray that we find something. That he can afford it. and it wouldn't hurt to find something close to us.

so much for that list..

I've done stuff.. the easy stuff. I need to get in gear and knock out the rest. whew that'll take weeks. I guess I'll be staying some overtime. It's too bad I'm salary and it doesn't really help me in any way to stay late. LOL

I'm coming out of the dark that I was in on Monday. I think that maybe AF is coming anytime. Joy!! I worked out last night, plus I made dinner, washed dishes, unloaded the dishwasher, ate, did my puzzle until 10pm and then read for a few more minutes. I was tired but happy. Felt like I had energy for sure. I'm hoping tonight will be the same. I love the way working out makes me feel. I just hate doing it or atleast starting it. What my plan is, is to work up to more minutes which I know I can do, I'm just lazy.

Anybody watch American Idol last night. Those poor fools.. they actually think they can sing. I feel for them really especially when they get their heartbroken. I LOVED the back up singer. She was awesome but so shy. What about the big guy that sang the blues.. he was awesome too. Darn Prez messed up my other viewing pleasure. No The Unit.. darn him.

Ok.. now to the hard part of my list.. Happy HumP DaY Everybody.

Missed friendship..

I ran across this ecard that was perfect for this person. I sent it not really knowing how it would be taken or if she would even look at it. But I sent it holding my breathe because really I could be setting myself up for more heartbreak. But whatever I'm throwing out that olive branch in hopes that we can re-connect in some way. Well day 7 has passed and not a word. So she obviously didn't want to look at it. Which is ok. I put myself out there. Did my best to say.. let it go and it didn't work. Better luck next time I guess. I'll keep up the hope that someday we'll move past it. But if not I know I have plenty of great friends to keep me occupied. :)

Work is going well. I have so much to do organizational stuff before my eval. But I feel that if I keep lists and stick to the lists then I'll get it done within time. I don't have blogging on my list but hey we all need a little breather time don't you think? LOL

Last night I didn't get a chance to work out. I had family hoopla to tend to. My MIL is having her 60th Birthday on February 18th. So we and I saw we because I've been pulling my weight too, are planning her party. Last night, I got the invites created and ordered. Now $80 later, I'm going to be addressing them in a hurry and getting them sent out. whew.. like I didn't have enough to do. They obviously don't know that it took me forever to do my own Christmas cards. I'm going to be under a tighter crunch this time around. I should be getting the list from my MIL sometime soon. I'm hoping.. and yes.. please pray for me that I don't have to do them by hand. That would not make me very happy. I'm hoping to get those little bad boys on label format so I can paste them. That would guarantee that I get help from my boys. woohoo

Ok.. time to jump on that list I so seldomly follow. ;)

Why..

Why does it always seem that my whole being is focused on Weight Loss. I know it's important. I know that it's a life changing event that HAS to happen. But I just feel that everything is so based on food. Like I can't get together with to many people on Friday night. Because I'm liable to not stick to the plan. I have weigh in on Saturday morning. Saturday after weigh in.. I wanna eat something good and not always on my plan. Bad yes.. but good for the soul so I don't go nuts.

Exercising... ugh. I've done so well in the past. I've worked out three times a week for the last few weeks. But I can't get myself to much more than that. I can't bring myself to go to the gym even if I paid for the month. It's either to cold. Or I got the kids. Or the main excuse.. I don't like going alone. But in reality it's that I'm a big lazy ass that doesn't want to move. Maybe it has a lot to do with the winter. I'm so ready for the spring/summer months. Most excuses I know. I want to get remotivated but I just don't know how. My co-worker is doing so well with working out and she encourages me. But it doesn't work. I know it has to be something in me to want to go. I will be my only motivator for sure.

I'm so edgy today too. So maybe my lack of excitement might be that I'm PMSing bad. And the weird thing is. I can totally feel my attitude. I feel like I could just down anyones throat at any given time. I'm hoping people won't talk to me, look at me, or need me for any reason. It'll be in their best interest to just stay away. LOL

This cold sucks..

I got resick from days in Arizona. I just can't seem to kick this darn cold. Still today, after resting all weekend, I'm feeling yucky. Better then Friday.. but still yucky. I'm bound to get better right. I didn't workout this weekend at all. I'm such a loser.

But I did make it to weigh in and lost 3.4 lbs. Total fluke I'm sure.. But I'll take it. I'm now at my lowest weight on WW. So exciting. This weekend I didn't eat much so I'm hoping that not working out hasn't hurt me. We shall see on Saturday. But I'm vowing to workout this week. Today, even if I don't feel 100% I'm jumping on my treadmill. P.E.R.I.O.D.

Sam and I got into a fight last night. Really, I don't even remember what it was about and why the hell it lasted until this morning. I just don't get it. I know it's healthy for us to have disagreements and such but man it's such a PITA. But all is well this morning. I gave him some loving before work. He'll be good for the rest of the day. I just wish that there would be a thing like they have for women.. PMS.. that they could do for men. Because I can tell you from personal experience that men go through their monthly routine as well. All in all this weekend was pretty good. I got some much needed rest. I didn't get any candles made which is bad because I have some to do. I hope they can understand.. Mama was sick!! I'll get on them for sure this weekend.

coffee.. more coffee

I am dying here. I sure wish I could get me a Starbucks. This regular coffee isn't doing the trick. I slept really well. Went to bed at 10ish and slept until about 6:15 only getting up once to pee. I worked out and felt really good last night too. I sure hope I can keep up the trend we shall see.

Work is going ok.. My bosses are out at meetings and it's quiet.. aww. Things got a little rocky with all the weather we've been having. We got a thrown together "weather policy" because people were whining about driving in the snow. We were told that if we are out of the office due to a snow day we will have to take vacation. Not sick leave. We were told that if our children have snow days we should bring them to work with us. That's a nice plus really but if it's dangerous why would you want us coming in risking not only ourselves but our kids. This last snow storm was bad but doable to get to work. But how do you know at the time. I remember exactly a year ago when I took a snow day because Erik was out of school. I ended up keeping Q home as well. Well I got the dreaded email that I knew for sure would come. Well this last time around I got an email that she was writing to my boss and I seriously think she accidentally cc'd me. She said she couldn't take C or my whining anymore and she let everyone go home out of frustration. Well there were a few people that stayed and I heard from one of them that she bad mouthed us the whole rest of the 1 hour that we were open. I got home and checked my email because I knew it was coming. Sure enough there was the email. She said I was whining. Such a lie. Q's daycare closed and I had to go get him. What was I to do. Leave him there. Sure enough.. 15 minutes later. She emails apologizing to me that she knew I wasn't whining and she let my boss knows this. But of course when she replied to him to tell him this time around I wasn't cc'd. So do I believe she told him that she made a mistake and it wasn't me? I don't think so. So what I did was replied to that email and cc'd my other boss. I'm glad she didn't blame me for her frustration. If it were up to me I would have stayed but with me being the responsible party to pick Q up.. what was I to do. on and on.

Anyway the next day we got the weather policy.. <> Well we are expecting another weather storm this weekend. We well ME I have anxiety because I'm not sure if it'll be bad during the work week. Making her a living hell to work with. Oh well we'll have to cross that bridge when we get to it.

Well that is my complaint of the month.. Hope yo all didn't get to bored reading it.

Hump Day

Well as I sit here wishing I had more motivation to actually do some work. The only thing I've done today is fax out a couple of w-9s. Boy and did that take all of 1 minute.

I'm much more worried about getting my shopping in for my supplies here at work. And no it's not supplies that work will pay for this is just for me. Food. LOL Why is it that food always seems to be on my mind. I was thinking that as soon as I lost weight and stuck with WW that I would think of it less and maybe if I'm lucky think about exercising. Well that didn't happen. I still think about food.. and think even less about exercising.

I did exercise yesterday.. again. Not sure how long I'll be able to keep this up as I have zero motivation. I'd like to be able to take a pill and burn all kinds of fat. I'll get there. I'm thinking the one deterent that is keeping in the house and not actually going to the gym is that it's so darn cold here. We are expecting another storm tomorrow through Sunday. Then we're going to be bitter cold Monday and Tuesday. Then from what the weather channel said we are in line for another weekend storm the weekend after that. What the hell is going on. New York is getting our weather.. that sucks.

Why do I feel

so darn tired today. I just can't get it together. I have so much to do at work and here I sit daydreaming. I want to go on vacation. Somewhere warm where there are no phones, no clocks, no SNOW!! I'd like to be on the cruise ship with my parents right about now.

I have so many wishes and hopes for 2007. I want to definitely be a better person. I know there have been relationships that have failed and whether they were because of my doing or not I still was affected by it. I want to be able to learn not to take everything so seriously, the things that are out of my control. I want to spend more time with Sam and my boys and make it quality time. I'd like to be a more "Godly" person. Not sure if that means going to church. I haven't done that quite yet. And of course the same one I have every year. Continue to be healthy and active. I still have atleast 30 lbs to lose.

Last night, I worked out on my treadmill. Tonight I'll do the same and then Wednesday for the rest of the week I'll go tot he gym. I need to get focused and remotivated. I have this really cute, sexy mama that motivates the hell out of me. She's a true fitness queen.. Love you Sarah! Then I have Kathleen.. she is going for it and working out like crazy, I need to do like her too.

Moving on, This I love New York show is so crazy. I don't know why I continue to watch such crazy stuff. But it's pure entertainment for sure. I love it. I'm waiting on a few more of my shows to start as well. American Idol, The Hills, you name it.. I'll watch it. The apprentice started on Sunday. It's still to early to have a favorite all I know is that I'm glad that goofy dude went home this week. woohoo Peggie, you and I are loving it aren't we?? LOL

Well back to work I go. I have someone breathing down my back for the invoices. Hope you all are having a great week.

Mel, I'm thinking about you and those sick kiddos of yours. I sure hope that they are feeling better very soon. Also, Mommy, you are never out of my mind. I love you and miss chatting with you girl. ((HUGS))

Well it's a New Year...

I hope to continuously post on my blog this time. I was doing so well and then fell off.