How many times have I said this..

I want another job. I need another job.

Quite frankly, I get paid pretty well. or maybe not. I mean, I've been here for 8 years. How do I know what the norm is anymore. I have to look into that. Anyway, the turn of events lately have just got me thinking.

First off, I don't go to the "staff" meetings on Mondays. Am I not staff? They are in there for an hour max, wouldn't it be ok if they just forwarded the phone until then. Apparently NOT!!

Second, there was a luncheon that we sponsored yesterday. Everyone had gotten an invite to go except of course.. you guessed it. ME. I probably wouldn't go. But an invite would be nice.

Third, two coworkers of mine have been here less then a year and they both have gone to conferences outside of the office. 3 nights in Ruidoso, NM would be wonderful to me right now. I mean it's a very small place. But a touristy place. They aren't doing anything that I couldn't do. I mean, they are going to sessions (I take great notes), they are doing marketing (got that one down too) and they are passing out brochures (in the bag!). THREE NIGHTS!!

Fourth, and the one that got me HEATED!!, I had ordered 3 cases of paper. Usually my one boss (male) will put it away from me. Those BITCHES are heavy. Well the other male boss comes up to me this morning and says.. at some point today would you put away that paper? I looked stunned and said, yeah I'll put it away. "Nice boss" usually does it. But I don't have a problem doing that. He could tell I was upset. I mean who wouldn't. Ok, yes I know it's my job to order supplies and what not. BUT, he couldn't do it. Come on now, it's THREE boxes.

It's not even about the paper as much as it is just being unappreciated. I don't get to do anything, go anywhere, get anything that everybody else gets. I've been here 8 long effing years and I'm so tired of being here already. The truth is, I won't get the 4 vacation if I go to another job. I may not get bonuses. On the other hand, I may get paid more. Ugh.. the pain in my head. LOL

Well if you've all read this.. that's great. Not sure I have any more readers.. but if so..LOVE YOU!!

wow.. it's been awhile..

Well I'm going to try and be better about posting on here. It's actually nice to be able to just talk and talk and talk.

I had an ok weekend. But I had a little episode on Sunday while making candles. Knowing that I've lost my candle partner is tough. I had a time there where I thought there has to be a bigger reason then just can't sell at work anymore. Don't have the time. I just knew she was selling behind my back. I'm thinking that my paranoid personality is coming out. I'm mostly just hurt that she would leave me hanging but then I can totally understand because if it were me. I'd be the same way.

She kept half the stuff because she's going to make some as gifts. I kept mine to sell what I can and if I can't then I won't. I don't want to be the biggest business person. I just want to be productive. Anyway, I'm hoping nothing's changed in our friendship. I'm sure we'll be fine. But I was hurt yesterday while I was making them on my own. So anyone that needs candles.. put your order in.

During my in-laws visit I gained 2lbs. I have now 2.2lbs to lose to get to my lowest ww weight. We'll see. I need to get back to the gym. I havne't been since my surgury in September. Well back to work I go.