two weeks.. what have I been up to?

Well we got my uncle settled at my parents house for the time being. His apartment won't be ready until like mid March. Which is ok because atleast he'll be closer to our side of town. What else? We had a meeting with my son's soccer coach and all seems ok but the fact that we lost two of our best players sucks. We have a tournament this weekend that I'm not sure about. We'll see how it goes. We are playing with younger guest players and to top it off it supposed to be really cold. Not good.

The losing weight is really lacking right now. I am at a plateu and I guess as long as I don't gain much and just maintain I'm ok. I figured that right now I'm not really motivated to workout and i figure that's ok. I know the closer that spring comes up I'll be more excited to do activities outside my home. I've gotten to the point where I feel that I can't restrict myself so much that I can't enjoy Friday night anymore. It's just too hard and I'll let go of my goal all too soon. I'm working at it.. it just is so hard.

Anyway, back to work. My eval is coming up and I'm just done with my years of filing. :)

Trying times

My uncle got an extension for his eviction. Thank God. But it seems that things are still not falling into place like they should. My brother and Sam would be the ones to help move him. Well next weekend my brother can't. He has guard. Then the following weekend he is having some sort of training. So guess that leaves Sam and I. geez.. I'm tired just thinking about it. Well we have other family members that can maybe help. Not like we see them hardly ever. But hey extra hands are always welcome. We're looking into getting a list from the County to see what apartments/houses are available. Then we'll see if he can transfer from one country to another easily or is it more difficult then what it's worth.

I just wish we didn't have to deal with it. But here it is.. get with it and get it done.

when it rains it pours..

My uncle called me yesterday and said he's being a evicted in 3 days. Let me tell you a little bit about him. He is 50ish. He is disabled not like a wheelchair disabled but he gets disability from the Veterans Administration. Anyhow, he get a little bit of money from the VA. A little bit of money from Social Security. Barely anything to live off of. But he makes it somehow. My mom has always been more like a mom to him. Always helping him out and doing for him. And both my brother and I have too. Well he's a recovering Alcoholic. He hasn't had a drink in years. I'm very proud of him. He's very overweight and has trouble getting around. He was trying to set up home healthy care through the VA because he's on oxygen and all that good stuff. Now he gets a letter from an attorney's office that he has 3 days to get out. Like WTF, I could see if he wasn't paying the rent. But he's been sending his portion of the rent (HUD pays the other portion) to the landlords. Well apparently they haven't been paying the mortgage so that leaves my uncle out in the cold. He always has a great attitude really because if it were me I'd be in need of some serious drinking. But he can't do that. So he calls me just now to tell me he called the lawyers office and they gave him 30 days. So now he'll be lookng for a new place within that time they gave him. I'm hoping that he can move closer to my parents, brother and I. We can do more for him if he were closer. He says he needs to be where he is because it's closer to the VA. But he only goes like once a month. When he goes visits us it's like twice a month if not more. So it would be better for him to move closer our way.

So for those that read here.. please pray that we find something. That he can afford it. and it wouldn't hurt to find something close to us.

so much for that list..

I've done stuff.. the easy stuff. I need to get in gear and knock out the rest. whew that'll take weeks. I guess I'll be staying some overtime. It's too bad I'm salary and it doesn't really help me in any way to stay late. LOL

I'm coming out of the dark that I was in on Monday. I think that maybe AF is coming anytime. Joy!! I worked out last night, plus I made dinner, washed dishes, unloaded the dishwasher, ate, did my puzzle until 10pm and then read for a few more minutes. I was tired but happy. Felt like I had energy for sure. I'm hoping tonight will be the same. I love the way working out makes me feel. I just hate doing it or atleast starting it. What my plan is, is to work up to more minutes which I know I can do, I'm just lazy.

Anybody watch American Idol last night. Those poor fools.. they actually think they can sing. I feel for them really especially when they get their heartbroken. I LOVED the back up singer. She was awesome but so shy. What about the big guy that sang the blues.. he was awesome too. Darn Prez messed up my other viewing pleasure. No The Unit.. darn him.

Ok.. now to the hard part of my list.. Happy HumP DaY Everybody.

Missed friendship..

I ran across this ecard that was perfect for this person. I sent it not really knowing how it would be taken or if she would even look at it. But I sent it holding my breathe because really I could be setting myself up for more heartbreak. But whatever I'm throwing out that olive branch in hopes that we can re-connect in some way. Well day 7 has passed and not a word. So she obviously didn't want to look at it. Which is ok. I put myself out there. Did my best to say.. let it go and it didn't work. Better luck next time I guess. I'll keep up the hope that someday we'll move past it. But if not I know I have plenty of great friends to keep me occupied. :)

Work is going well. I have so much to do organizational stuff before my eval. But I feel that if I keep lists and stick to the lists then I'll get it done within time. I don't have blogging on my list but hey we all need a little breather time don't you think? LOL

Last night I didn't get a chance to work out. I had family hoopla to tend to. My MIL is having her 60th Birthday on February 18th. So we and I saw we because I've been pulling my weight too, are planning her party. Last night, I got the invites created and ordered. Now $80 later, I'm going to be addressing them in a hurry and getting them sent out. whew.. like I didn't have enough to do. They obviously don't know that it took me forever to do my own Christmas cards. I'm going to be under a tighter crunch this time around. I should be getting the list from my MIL sometime soon. I'm hoping.. and yes.. please pray for me that I don't have to do them by hand. That would not make me very happy. I'm hoping to get those little bad boys on label format so I can paste them. That would guarantee that I get help from my boys. woohoo

Ok.. time to jump on that list I so seldomly follow. ;)

Why..

Why does it always seem that my whole being is focused on Weight Loss. I know it's important. I know that it's a life changing event that HAS to happen. But I just feel that everything is so based on food. Like I can't get together with to many people on Friday night. Because I'm liable to not stick to the plan. I have weigh in on Saturday morning. Saturday after weigh in.. I wanna eat something good and not always on my plan. Bad yes.. but good for the soul so I don't go nuts.

Exercising... ugh. I've done so well in the past. I've worked out three times a week for the last few weeks. But I can't get myself to much more than that. I can't bring myself to go to the gym even if I paid for the month. It's either to cold. Or I got the kids. Or the main excuse.. I don't like going alone. But in reality it's that I'm a big lazy ass that doesn't want to move. Maybe it has a lot to do with the winter. I'm so ready for the spring/summer months. Most excuses I know. I want to get remotivated but I just don't know how. My co-worker is doing so well with working out and she encourages me. But it doesn't work. I know it has to be something in me to want to go. I will be my only motivator for sure.

I'm so edgy today too. So maybe my lack of excitement might be that I'm PMSing bad. And the weird thing is. I can totally feel my attitude. I feel like I could just down anyones throat at any given time. I'm hoping people won't talk to me, look at me, or need me for any reason. It'll be in their best interest to just stay away. LOL

This cold sucks..

I got resick from days in Arizona. I just can't seem to kick this darn cold. Still today, after resting all weekend, I'm feeling yucky. Better then Friday.. but still yucky. I'm bound to get better right. I didn't workout this weekend at all. I'm such a loser.

But I did make it to weigh in and lost 3.4 lbs. Total fluke I'm sure.. But I'll take it. I'm now at my lowest weight on WW. So exciting. This weekend I didn't eat much so I'm hoping that not working out hasn't hurt me. We shall see on Saturday. But I'm vowing to workout this week. Today, even if I don't feel 100% I'm jumping on my treadmill. P.E.R.I.O.D.

Sam and I got into a fight last night. Really, I don't even remember what it was about and why the hell it lasted until this morning. I just don't get it. I know it's healthy for us to have disagreements and such but man it's such a PITA. But all is well this morning. I gave him some loving before work. He'll be good for the rest of the day. I just wish that there would be a thing like they have for women.. PMS.. that they could do for men. Because I can tell you from personal experience that men go through their monthly routine as well. All in all this weekend was pretty good. I got some much needed rest. I didn't get any candles made which is bad because I have some to do. I hope they can understand.. Mama was sick!! I'll get on them for sure this weekend.